I wonder what I want sometimes, I always find myself lost between two entities. Is it freedom that I seek or the “peace” that every other person promotes but never acts upon? Sometimes we wonder what our life is about or even, why we are born in the first place. These things we think about some think about it more frequently than others but equally everyone looks for a reason to live.

I came about a quote, “My life has a superb cast but I can’t figure out the plot.” It is by Ashleigh Brilliant, an author and a syndicated cartoonist.

I find it rather similar to my life. I figure it is; I love the cast in my life right now. I have superb people around me, a mother which sacrifices so much more than anyone I know, a dead father that continues to be my drive to live, a step-father that takes care of my mother well, two brothers who have their own agendas but love me equally and a sister who gives me her utmost support in my interests. A beautiful family I have, cousins, aunts and uncles, even with their imperfections I love them still. Then I have friends who give me their all, understanding me even when I don’t totally understand myself, I wouldn’t want to replace them with anyone. Doesn’t that count as a beautiful cast?

Many would call me crazy for wanting more in life, especially when I have such beautiful people around me. Call me crazy but I am one person who wants to understand the bigger picture; I can’t live being ignorant to all the things that are happening in the world. Even if I can’t bring about peace to this world, I would like to at least be able to say I tried. To at least find freedom, to at least understand why life always chaotic and frenzy; has it always been this way? Or have we all turned corrupt since the days of the cavemen. My reason to live is to understand, I know I am meant for greater. I am not greedy; I just refuse to believe that life is unfair. Life is fair, we make it unfair and we complain for our wrong doings. Isn’t that just us?

Let it be found, or it shall find us.

I wonder what I want sometimes, I always find myself lost between two entities. Is it freedom that I seek or the “peace” that every other person promotes but never acts upon? Sometimes we wonder what our life is about or even, why we are born in the first place. These things we think about some think about it more frequently than others but equally everyone looks for a reason to live.

I came about a quote, “My life has a superb cast but I can’t figure out the plot.” It is by Ashleigh Brilliant, an author and a syndicated cartoonist.

I find it rather similar to my life. I figure it is; I love the cast in my life right now. I have superb people around me, a mother which sacrifices so much more than anyone I know, a dead father that continues to be my drive to live, a step-father that takes care of my mother well, two brothers who have their own agendas but love me equally and a sister who gives me her utmost support in my interests. A beautiful family I have, cousins, aunts and uncles, even with their imperfections I love them still. Then I have friends who give me their all, understanding me even when I don’t totally understand myself, I wouldn’t want to replace them with anyone. Doesn’t that count as a beautiful cast?

Many would call me crazy for wanting more in life, especially when I have such beautiful people around me. Call me crazy but I am one person who wants to understand the bigger picture; I can’t live being ignorant to all the things that are happening in the world. Even if I can’t bring about peace to this world, I would like to at least be able to say I tried. To at least find freedom, to at least understand why life always chaotic and frenzy; has it always been this way? Or have we all turned corrupt since the days of the cavemen. My reason to live is to understand, I know I am meant for greater. I am not greedy; I just refuse to believe that life is unfair. Life is fair, we make it unfair and we complain for our wrong doings. Isn’t that just us?

Let it be found, or it shall find us.